mas

moments...

2010-02-12T19:55:00.000-08:00

moments i had with everyone in this world.... there's ups and downs. too much of it.. but, that's what making life sooo fun. and full of spice. or in malay, ' asam garam hidup'. life is full of sweetness, bitterness, saltiness, sometimes, tasteless. but, thats life!

moments in kindergarden... first day of school, i cried! i didn't want mama to go home. i remembered that i cried almost every single day. but, i manage to pull through when i made new friends. i love making new friends. kids.. what do u expect? after that, move on to primary school. yes, i cried again. this time, i got lost in the school! hahahaha!! funny! secondary school, hell no! a lil bit mature. hahaha. soo much memories... its true when people say secondary school memories cannot be forgotten. luckily, there's facebook. i get connected with most of my lost friends. and made new friends as well. hehehehe.

especially when ure in a relationship, a lot of things happen. it really test your patience, ur heart, whether ure loyal to your partner or not, test your confidence, all. it really test u in and out. im glad i did the same with audi. both of us were tested in a lot of aspects. i gotta be patient with his lateness, ways of playing games(he tends to talk with his game while playing.. which guys doesn't?), how long he takes to meet me. if he says at 12, latest at 1230. but, i gotta learn how to deal with it. sometimes, if he's early, i kinda miss him getting late. serious. when ure soo use to his lateness, u tend to miss all the bad side of him. true?? and many ask me, how long am i with audi?? well, we turned 1 year last tuesday!! great time yesterday!

after school, went to marina for lunch. where? seoul garden. first time he gave up and i still continue. hahhhaaha! before that we went to fourskin. he bought me a dress! thanks sayang! love that dress too much! i try to put up on facebook so u can see. and he bought me webcam! so that we could videocall when he's at home. besides, its free! stay connected! then a headphone! my earpiece was kinda bad side and i gotta buy it! then, off to home. oh ya. bout the dress, i wear it as soon as bought it. he wants me to wear it, so i did. i loveeee the prints and the colour. awesomeness!!

and my lil nephew is coming tomorrow and i cnt wait! he's 3 month already?! wow. kak wani and abg farid marriage will be turning 1 year too on valentine's day! awesomeness!! and i must say my nephew is getting more handsome now.. like father like son. im sooo going to hug him tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! more exclamation marks means im soooo excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yipeee!!!

im off to watch some videos on youtube.. find me in facebook. nice!

have a great day!!!

dilemma...

2010-01-19T07:38:00.000-08:00

why am i always sick? at the very last minute when i wanna go school? or date with audi? or just going out?? is my immune system not strong? do i need multi vitamin like what audi always said? is it coz of my sunises? is it? oh god, please tell me why!

i've just lost a a good friend last week. im not in school for last week. my mind was totally off the limit. i couldn't think whats going on. she died to suddenly. i was shock when her mum told me that her boyfriend did it. i couldn't think straight. i keep crying. i was pissed off at myself. for not helping her when she needed my help. im such a bad friend. if i were given a chance to make it up for her, i will do my very best.

to all the lecturers, friends, pearlyn, im sorry. sorry that i went missing. i know that what i did was wrong. totally wrong. i knew a lot of people cared about me, but i neglected it. i was in my own world. like many say, kejar bayang. i was chasing my own shadows, which i knew i couldn't catch it no matter what. attachment is in a few months time and i keep falling sick. which, i don't know why. eaten something wrong. always. im stubborn, so the more i can't eat the food, the more i eat. im stubborn, yes.

im just pissed off at myself right now. totally. for not pushing myself hard enough. and always sick. premature baby?? i don't know. can't say much about that. to all whom may concern, im sorry for my beings these days. awwfully weird behaviour. im sorry...

my surgery is on the 2 feb. and mitting the doc on the 9 feb. just a scan i think. although i think its both surgery and scan. i don't know. after that thing in my nose is gone, im perfectly normal, again. no more head pains, nose pain, no more. FREE!!!

........................................

2009-12-21T17:06:00.000-08:00

Hit my head, yes. Gone crazy, yes. Lost my mind, yes. Attempted suicide, yes. Scream, yes. Getting slap, yes. How do we reflect it? Controlling your emotions is very important. That is what happen last night to me. I couldn't control my emotions. I let my emotions control over me. I tried as hard as i could. Because of my emotions, i'm lost in my own world. I let it take control of me so much until i forgot who am i. I hit my head so hard. I could say i nearly lost my mind. But, when i hug abg hairi, i could feel the strength. I wanted to ran away from home last night. But when i think back the flashbacks, about abg hairi once ran away from home, i don't want my parents to be like this. And i know abg hairi slap me for a reason. He wants me to wake up. Wake up from all this....

To ain, ayu, abg yid, abg hairi, mama, kak wani, kak ana, cik som, im sorry. Maybe i didn't realize that i did wrong. Maybe i didn't even realize that i did wrong. I nearly killed myself last night, negative things were in my brain, stupid brain. All i could thing was ending my life, jumping down from my house. But, i stop myself. Maybe if i control my emotions, i'm a better person....

SO MY 2010 RESOLUTIONS(if i spelled that right?) IS................................

1. Get my attachment! I was still planning to get 2am: dessert bar?, shangri-la, hanis?

2. Still thinking what to get for audi's 21th birthday!?! any suggestions?!!!

3. Change for the better! If i have to be scolded or what, i sanggop!!

4. Find a part time job. for a few months je la before i go attachment! Ok tk?

5. Get a GPA of 3 and above! Oh ya! still nervous for tomorrow la! Exam results liao!
23 Dec!
6. Try to convince my parents to buy me a kitten or cat. What? Can i? Mama say i cannot get pregnant! tol ke?!

7. Try new sports! After i was kicked out! Darn!

8. Find my old friends back. Its nice to see your kindergarden friends back.. I've only found elzuan! Where's the rest?!

9. Go naji! Insyallah if i have the time.

10. Learn new skills. SPCA??

11. Watch more movies!

Well... thats it for now i guess. I've say what i wanna say. I've do what i wanna do.

No more craps for me no more!

RaRa mastuRa...
10.06am...
22.12.09

2009-12-13T17:48:00.000-08:00

if i were given a few wish, i'll choose it wisely. because i know that if i choose wisely, i felt good about myself. after which, i'll make good full use of it.

wish number 1: bed bugs! it really sucks to have it in your room! on your bed! i get bites from it and it sucks. ayie just got a surgery due to that. its really huge! scary too!! but, he's ok now.

wish number 2: get my room, renovated! yea! i want that! a new room for my birthday would be awesome! new colours, new concept, eveything! everything new!

wish number 3: a cat or kitten. i really want a pet. a four-legged one would be nice. cats of course. it makes me feel happy ya know. but i know mama wouldn't allow me. maybe ayah will. ayie, i think he would allow. i know its messy, but, its nice to have a pet around u. its very therapuetic. oh god, i really hope they allow.

wish number 4: get my old friend back. i realize that my attitude its like bella now. eversince i got a boyfriend, i dun get in touch with them. i was too busy with him. most of my friends complain bout it. i know girls, i'll make it up to u soon, i promise. i just need time.

wish number 5: turn back time. yea. i wanna do things all over again. from my attendance, to getting my classmates back, study more during my N levels, excel in art, in band, all. if those things can be change, im more than happy.

wish number 6: my attitude. i wanna change it for e better but i know its in me already. but, if no one can change it for me, i gotta change it myself. right? less crying, more patience, less angry. deal?

wish munber 7: get my sports back! really! can i?! please syg! can i can i can i! water polo la! please! it's not because of him, but, i really nk play it again! please syg?!!! omg! i knew u would say no!

2009-11-21T04:29:00.000-08:00

i thought i got debar, but, im lucky. so lucky. thanks allah for giving me e strength. alhamdulilah, now, i learn how to appreciate life. life is not easy. its never easy, i knw maybe sir is right. im chasing my own shadow. after wat i heard frm sir, it really open my own eyes, my heart. its hard man. tough. i knw.

im trying to sort things out myself. i knw im not perfect, well, not everyone is not perfect. e life that im in, sometimes, i starting to wonder, its it ok? ok for me to be in this state?haiz...

seeing people around me happy, im happy. but, i knw, some space in my heart, im keeping a spot where im sad. but, i need to show to people that im strong. i am strong.

2mrw, ecp day. day to spent with my bf. and cool myself down. and i knw i have to...

bye....

2009-11-14T04:00:00.000-08:00

life isn't perfect even though u plan it perfectly. its not smooth even though how well u plan it. i thought mine is perfect, but, its the same. no matter how well i plan it, its rocky. haiz. sometimes, i felt like as if im in a cage. i just need to get out of it, but, its hard. no matter how hard i struggle, im still stuck. why does my life have to be this way? i just need to get out, but i don't know how. can anyone tell me how???

why am i always in the middle? why do i have to face the lie of my family? why do i have to cover my face? why can't i be like normal people? why???

love as well. everytime i try to talk, i just had to cool myself down. i knw im a bit of a cry baby. im trying to get that out from myself. but, i knw its hard. 'gangster tapi gembeng'. thats wat audi love to call me. haha. even though we've been through a lot, its nine months already. wow. its long. but, i know, its a lot of hard work. god, why am i like this??? its just tough man. too tough. syg, if u are reading this, dun wery. im ok. i just need to correct myself right now. i knw i got debar from my exam. and i knw my dad dun care.

my dad. i dun think he cared at all bout me. he dun seem to care bout me, my studies, my life. he's in his world of his own. and sometimes, i felt that, 'hey, he dun care bout me, why shd i care bout him as well??'. right?? it makes sense man. dad, if ure reading this, i knw, im different. im different frm abg. i have my own opinion and i tend to keep quiet bout my problem, like u. i got all this frm u dad. and i hate that. and i tk nk susahkn org like mama. i hate that too. haiz.

oh ya. my head. i have too see a neurologist on the 14 dec and ,y next check up is 5 jan. haiz. but im ok. dun wery.

well, i guess that for now. i'll blog soon when i got my oc back. im using kak wani mac.

rara

2009-06-29T21:55:00.000-07:00

hey bloggy!

my pc is down so i cnt update that much unless i go to boyfie 's place. haa. 4 months and still going strong yea. i got my exam results back. well, not hat convincing la. B for my intro to baking science, C for my asian swets, cake mixing and pastry basics. ok la. and total GPa is 2.2. at least its better than last year for my previous course. i'm not gonna update that much since pc is down. feel very suckish ok! so, i update to u uys soon when i get my pc back yea!

TO ALL MY PEEPS WHO MISS ME, I'LL UPDATE MY BLOG WHEN THE PC IS FIXED. SORY BABES AND HUNKS!!

i see ya when i see ya. see ya!! :)

2009-05-16T22:00:00.000-07:00

hey blog!!

i know its been a awhile since i blog, like, a month ago. i knw many ask me to update my blog, so, here i am la!! well, a lot of things happen to me. i'll tell u bit by bit. school was fun, except that i never been to school lately. but i'm going now la. been sick, miss a lot of lesson. feel quite bad la now. but, lucky for me, i could take my exam in june.

and i've made black forest cake. and i gave to audi's mum. not just for her, but whole family. and since azri's birthday is on tuesday, so, that's for his belated birthday cake la. cool right?! but, thats not all. his tiramisu is coming on monday as well! yup! i'm making tiramisu and i'm making 2 numbers. one for him, one for me! azri is audi younger bro. well, thought of meeting his mum alone, but, his dad too. whole family la in short! i wanted to go home but yaya came home too. and she was angry at some people. yaya, if ure reading this, please, dun be angry. if that person takes a picture of u and claim that he's a reporter, ask him for his card. every reporter should have a card or something like that. or if ure really mad, just kick his weaknest point babe! u can do it! if rara can do it, so can yaya! ok, MEREPEK! it was after school that i went to his place. audi was waiting for me at my school bus stop at 1630 and i ended at 1800! sorry sayang!

and the chalet part, well, i don't wanna talk bout it. but, it was a great chalet of course! audi mit my mum, good la! heeeeee.

and its like turning 4 months with me n audi! woohoo! and its a confirmation tat on my birthday this year falls on my own birthday! yup! 22 aug! omg! but no worries. i might celebrate earlier or later. all depends on whoever asking me out. and national day fall on aura's 5th month! weee! sayang! u can ask for the tix oredy la! go cpt!!! i want to go!! please!!!*pityful face*.

and since tuesday is azri's birthday, i might be popping by to wish him happy birthday! haa! okok, i know u guys may think' wats up with this girl? sooo good to the siblings?' well, that's because, 'thats how u relate to ur partner's siblings! and i dun have any younger siblings, so, they're like my siblings oso la. i treat them equally'. betol tak adek-adek kak rara??? or something like tat la. i just want the best for my siblings je. hee.

19th may, three person birthday. but, i only care bout my adek je la! and tat is azri! but, i care for audi oso! twilight book i almost read finish! asking yaya if i could borrow new moon ke tk! heee!!!

ok, hope that i can make it for my test. STUDY HARD, PLAY HARD!!

talk to u guys soon!!! cio!!

rara love audi many2x!!!

2009-04-08T15:46:00.000-07:00

booooo!!

i feel soooo sick, damn sick, totally sick! a sudden of fever. bleah! i'm out of water polo, totally! yeah. i don't wanna tell u guys here why i'm out. if u wanna knw, just tet me and i'll tell u. if, i want it. right now, i wanna unwind myself. and the best way to do it is, saturday! going to east coast with audi. for diana's picnic ler. i wanna breathe in the fresh air, relax my mind, bring a notebook, pen my thoughts down or maybe draw. ok, this may sound, wow! this girl has a lot to unwind. haa. yes. maybe. maybe i'll do this alone, if, audi doesn't wanna accompany me tat is. i'll be wearing a white skirt(which is actually a tube dress!), my pink mtv shirt(maybe la. if not i wear op orange shirt.), sandals, philip(my levi's bag) filled with knife(maybe la. if i cnt find fruits tat has been cut or got no time to cut at home.), newspapers, shades, purse, shorts(maybe, if i have to be involve for the games?), toiletries(i don't like my face being oily after east coast trips!). maybe, tats about it la i bring la. lol.

and damn i miss audi! like i said in my previous post, i'll beat/bully audi in front of diana, i take back all my words! but, i have to urot his back la coz he complain his back pain. sat i urot for u k syg? and yesterday morning duty, i teman him. 4am to 6am duty. i auto set my alarm at 4am. so, i decided to text him la. den he as if i wanna call him. which practically, i did. since i'm awake and got nothing to do, puas ati i teman die kn? heeeeee.

fri is my cousin's nikah, which, i'm obviously going la. den kene rewang potong bende2 tu sume. and that's my fave thing to do la. haa. honestly, i love to help e makciks to kopek kentang nie sume. best tau. gerek! but i knw some girls think, 'dekni pelik uh. org tk nk kotor kn tangan, baju sume'. but u knw wat?i don't care la. lgpn, in future, u have to all this stuff. better start from young. nanti da kawin, carik mak. haa. tats wat mama gangster always say to me! so, i'm listening to her la. haa.

saturday is e picnic day. most prob i buy the fruits yg belom potong, den i potong pt rumah. if sempat la. if tk, den bo pian lor. have to cut there. diana oso knw. she wants watermelon(audi's fave) and honeydew. audi doesn't even know wat is honeydew and how it looks like! but, its ok syg. saturday tau gak. heeee. i'm going to kak ana's place ard 10 am so sampai gedebak gedebuk ard 1045 or latest 11, depending on the bus arrival. if i reach at ard 1115, i makan, dok2 jap, talk2 den i go. coz i told mama gangster i have to reach there ard 1pm or 2pm. me and audi taking bus 31. tol2 dpn umah me. so, its easier la. eh! i ask audi to fetch me at my block at 1pm kn?! eeeeeeeee!! belo nye rara! okok, i have to reach home before 1245 or 1230. ala, most prob latest audi reach is 1.15pm? he say if he da bwh block, he call me. so, yea. lol.

oriiiiiitttttttttttteeeeeeee!! blog on saturday night or sunday morning la ye. see ya! :)

2009-04-05T11:45:00.000-07:00

booooooo!!!!!

wat a great thing to start my sunday morning by blogging. its a pretty boring sunday today i guess. nothing to do, bored gila, thinking of what i should disturb audi on saturday picnic outing. and, oh no! i've been talking to yaya on facebook and audi's home! hopefully he not coming to com! but, speaking of the devil, he is!!!! matilah aku!!! sooooo dead!! syg, please? i innocent leh. dun bully me on saturday.. cn?? *pityful face* please????????????????????? okok, u can do anything to me on saturday k... promise! i told yaya to tell u hor.

okok, back to wat i was writing, RARA PROMISE NOT TO BEAT AUDI IN FRONT OF DIANA!! i promise to be a good girl on that day. i will listen to audi on that day(tapi kn, he oso have to listen to me mah!) haa! great! now he want's to beat me up! okok, deal. i take back my words now he want to beat me up. ok lor.

mama cooking nasi lemak on a sunday morning.... yum!! and great! i'm having a debate with audi on facebook now! k la i knw i belo!!!!!! boncet!!! ape lagi?!?!?!?! ugh!!! i take half of my words back!!

satuday, be prepared syg!!! prepared!!!

2009-04-02T12:27:00.000-07:00

Hey people!

i've type so much just now and internet explorer just hanged! and now i have to type alll over again!!

and i miss audi zulkanaen bin norman!! i just met him yesterday sia! first time he saw me wearing tudung, he told me he have to get use to it! i had a great day yesterday though. we went to paya lebar to eat sup kambing. he's the one that's eating and i had kuay teow goreng. it was awesome! after that i went town area. i was actually searching guitar and drumstick for abg hairi, but end up finding a sports bag for myself! but i never buy la. no cash mah. lol! and i have this habit of disturbing him, like..... ok. we eat lontong with serunding right? u knw wat audi call that? twinkle twinkle! haa! i had a good laugh sia!! and plus, he's my mr prasan. ya. he likes to call himself fernando torres! prasan prasan pn, my sayang jugak!

i went to watch movie with diana two days ago and the movie we watch was confession of a shopaholic. its worth it la paying $6.50 for the tix. story line was good and i definitely like what the director wanted to deliver. come on, girls love to shop! but after i watch this, i realize that we should buy what we need, not what we want. a girl who loves to shop, but ended up with debts, selling all her stuff for auction, using the money to pay all her debt, that really a good thing to do. how i wish i could sell my magazines! too much already and guess what? i could actually save up to $200 per year! everybody should watch this movie. and that include, guys! i notice that guys love to shop alot! like yesterday. we're crossing to tangs if i'm not wrong, this guy, wow, i must say he loaded gila la, from top to botton, new urban male! that top je da $50 plus. and that guy bought like a bag filled with new urban male! sometimes, i wonder, do i need all this stuff? judt shop what i need, not what i want.

i was planning to buy a liverpool shirt with my name and number on but its $149! and i have to think twice on buying that. i mean, do i really need it?? should i buy it?

and its a confirm i'm going to diana's picnic next saturday. but i told her i going late la coz my abg sedare kawin mah. so, cannot escape. on the fri je la i not sure. mama say she will tell me on the day itself. hopefully i can go on both days la. if not, audi have to go alone! muahahaha! but i still have another pit. 1 may to 3 may. tu pn kak wani suro i bring audi. ain oso. lol. i try la ye to bring audi. and its like the first time audi meet mama gangster. daughter gangster he da tak takot. cume mama gangster je. lol. don't worry sayang, you'll be ok, i'm sure. haa!

and i don't know what am i going to go for the rest of the day. my prepaid da left $1 plus je. tu pn kene tahan sampai next week. haa! maybe sleep? g pool? meet kenny? aiyak! kenny hot ker? ala! for me he still the same kenny la! cume now he got the playboy looks! no offence dude! or maybe i got for a jog la. haa! i don't knw la! see la wat i do? i don't want to mengadap com je. nanti kene sound ngn audi. 'why head saket syg? kai com lame2x ehk? nk kene myophia eh? look jauh2x!!' that's exactly wat he say! tk mo paiseh eh orang tu! muahahahaha!!

haa! k la. i want to surf net, play games. blog again soon!!

2009-03-30T12:17:00.000-07:00

People!!!

Its been 3 whole months, or maybe more than 3 months since i update this blog. And i kinda miss all of u! A lot of this happen actually. Been busy with school, relationships, training, life. And did i mention that i'm attached?! Oh yeah!! I'm attached to Audi Zulkanaen Bin Norman! He's a great guy, funny, cute, awesome! But! here's a thing! He's always late! But i have to get use to it. Come on! I have to accept the fact that i'm dating an ns guy. But, nevertheless, he's the man that bring smiles to my face, endless ones. And, i enjoy it very much! Okok, i've watch dragonball evolution(on 14 march), goku is superrrrrrrrrrrr hot!! Hot stuff man! Wish audi is goku...................... Enough!! Stop day dreaming rara! Streetfighter was awesome as well. I like the fighting scene best. But definitely not the best i've seen. In terms of story line, its perfect, but it's a little bit slow on the other hand. Stars kristen kreuk(audi's fave!), singaporean edmund chen and more.

Life has been good lately. New account yearbook, finding friendship, and yes, tats how i got a lot of overseas friend. i've made friends with gio, who is a puerto rican, mason frm tenesse, thomas frm new mexico, and not forgetting a chef from germany. I forgot his his name though. And more coming up i guess.

Water polo training is ok. Except that is has gone pretty much changes in all of us. Men's and women's team are pretty more stonger, exxcept me, lol. Been busy with school and i hardly have the time to train myself. Hopefully, i'm free in the following moths to come.

Watching movies with diana tomorrow. I don't know what movies to watch. Maybe confession of a shopaholic? Hotel for dogs? Ugh!! Can't decide!!

On the 10th of april, i might be going to intan's birthday pit. Yeah, maybe. Intan is audi's friend and she wants me to come. Alamak babes! I not sure if i can make it or not la! Hopefully i can make it la coz my abg sedare kawin. Insyallah i come. Hehehehehehehe!!!

And last but definitely not the least, it's almost 2 months of relationship with my audi sayang! Don't feel like it though! Like as if i just got attached to him yesterday, serious!!

RARA LOVESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS AUDI!!!

2008-12-02T00:39:00.000-08:00

hey people!!! its been a long time since i blogged. i'm kinda lazy to update my blog actually. haa!! seriously. if i blog everday, sometimes my day won't be filled. i guess u knw what i mean. haa! and current obsession? well, alot!! german guys, baking, chucky kaplow, izjzudin, dancing, singing... wait, did i just say izjzudin?!! oh my god!! ok, u guys shouldn't know bout this. lets just say, he's my special friend, well, more. hee. i made friends with a lot of people online!! good bunch. i don't know bout jeff i guess. long time never chat with him, miss him lots. but, i don't know. its just hard. hard to let go. he's a good friend. i really miss him lots! haiz.

baking? wee!! i need to wait for n level results then i can apply school! wee!! and i heard abg hairi is going to study again. i'm pretty happy. and most of this friends are going to study as well. i'm soooo happy for them! i'm going to apply pastry and baking over at clementi. just in case i didn't get that one, culinary in western over at clementi as well. all far, but i don't care. i mean if simei have this course by nxt yr, applying there as well. but, i wanna go clementi because its nearer to ite dover. ok, not to see hakim or watever ok. near to zac efron(which i call izjzudin that!). haa! and culinary?? nononononononononono!!! not to be close to audi la! even though he go italy and he's a chef, that's not one of the reasons why i wanna take culinary!! coz i wanna learn how to cook uh. i'm a girl and i should learn how to cook. hee. i'm gonna win my man heart through his stomach, how bout that? haa! nice!!

chucky kaplow, he's a dancer and cheographer for high school musical!! woohoo!! he's soooo cute!!! yeah!!! amazing dancer!! check out his moves at high school musical! all three season i guess.

alright, a lil bit russhing now. last minute meet kenneth!! chiow!

2 dec
17.05

2008-10-25T05:02:00.000-07:00

hey bloggy! its been like 2 whole months since i've updated my blog. well, everything seems fine, except, a lot of things have happen. let me start.

hari raya was great! except i don't really fell the festival this yr. went to geylang serai with diana, buka together, boring!! geylang serai is not the old geylang serai i've been. its a totally different thing! bore! argh! kinda regret going there!(why did i go in the first place?!) haha! first day, collected bout 2oo plus! serious! haha! and end up, two days after tat, i went shopping with diana and anum. bought mp3( this time is samsung!), a watch(pretty cheap but nice!), took neoprint. haha! girls stuff next!( well, almost!) met my long best ex-turned-godbro, ken! mit him for some supper! it was great man! a lot of things to talk about! relationships, school, stuff! empty ones i guess! we had a great laugh, so much fun!

relationships eh.. hmm, not ready to talk about it yet, sorry!! but, here a quote: accept the fact that i got a lot of guy friends!!

school is ok. no more school till nxt yr. re-applying for baking nxt year. back in ite clementi! oh my g*d! sooo far?! you know wat?? i don't care less! i love baking and might make baking as my profession! i love to bake! and those out there who can't bake(whoever eats chilli, feel the hotness), shut up! stop going around and say this or tat! and so wat if u bought DSLR? u think i care? stop saying tat u go to photography class or WATEVER! and tk mo byk spelling ehk ckp canon ni la, nixon ni la! u think u so good uh? and stop showing tat u got this camera la! showing off is not in my dictionary! u think people will like? heyloo! no offence ok. if u hate me about wat i'm gonna say, i suggest u to leave! u, ur sis, ur mum shd forgive ur dad! he needs support, tats all! u guys are not doing anything to help him! i knw its hard, but please! visit him! nenek yg tua2 g visit, u all tk nk? ehk!! nenek da tua ok! tk kesian kn ker?!!! ok la ehk. in short, u guys kn, dasar show off!! and tk mo byk spelling ehk! tyme atok tanye u, masturah after ite cn go poly ke tak, u say if she wants?? got to hell la kaes! so wat if i can't go poly? at least i know where i'm standing! shut u bunch of freaks!!!

well, kenneth is doing great right now. getting ready for nxt yr sea games! water polo go go go!!! take care kaes!

oh well, jeff(german guy, diana and anum know bout him, shit!), he's nice. been chatting with him for five months now. we texted, call(not so). chatted with him over yahoo. know him from myyearbook.com(remember??). he said he's coming over to singapore in march! can't wait! and plus, he's giving stuff for christmas! woohoo!! i wonder wat is it. hmm.... a lot of local guys ask me this, why i go for american guys?? my answer is, idk! haa! local guys are not good looking enough? well, good looking! but, i prefer american guys? coz their dicks are bigger?? no!!! i find tat american guys are better. charming, sweet, all good stuff. locals are not! well, maybe. 2 out of 10!! muahahaa!!! bad right?

well guys, i'll write more soon!!

later!!

2008-08-16T21:15:00.000-07:00

ahhhhchoooo! yeah, been sick lately. fever, flu, argh! and if you guys wondering why i never talk bout papi......

its because, he says its time for us to seperate. wat the heck! but i ask him, do u love me? then he say, yes. but he needs time. wat the heck! need time? heyloo!!! if u not ready to be in a relationship, then don't be in one la! coz it hurts me!! u fikir hati i nie senang2 je ke nk break? u fikir hati i nie untuk die pecah2kan? i love u lots, yet, ape yg i dpt?? NOTHING!! ape salah i u??

wat did i do wrong to u guys?? wat?? i'm sick and tired tau! i know i have my past, but i've changed!!

and for those who is shocked tat i've change my image, i change because i want to. i want to change for the better! and heyloo!! i dun care wat others have to say bout my new image. my parents are happy, my family is happy, my peps are happy tat i've change! and at my friendster tat i say 'proud to be a tudung gal' tu kelakar?? ehk! tak kelakar ehk! at least i tak tarok 'minah tudung'. if u all tak suker, den i suggest tat u lek one corner! serious. at least i change for the better, not worse! u all tu kan, lau tk happy, g bla la. serious tau. i hate it wen people say tat. like come on! ape salah nye tudung gal?? wat? guys, u all tu tk suker tugung gal why ar? coz cannot kiss, hug, and do stuff in public? wth!! all guys are the same! nafsu je kuat!! argh!! no comment bout this.

and now i have no mood to talk. will be updating blog soon, till my mood is ok.. and plus!! happy birthday to me in advance!! 22 aug, here i come! and please ehk, meera, i know u da plan my pranks! and yes, i will bring xtra clothes! yes i will!! and i guess i will be celebrating alone. i plan all this, i have to cancel! i make a reservation for two at a restaurant, a spa for two, den all of this! i have to cancel it! thanks ehk! i took time with kenneth(yes, my loveliest ex cum my bestie cum my abg angkat), just to book this, and now i have to cancel it! luckily its kenneth friends tau. lau tidak, jgn harap nk refund! ugh!!!!!! i got time for kenneth? yes i got! coz i always meet him after sch and we make a deal after we broke up. and it still remains till after i end my ite years. and i hope it will remains till the end. i just miss kenneth alot. miss the times we had. not a single fight. but we got a few ups and downs. soo much fun. but we have to end. its a clean break.

got to go now. ttyl!

2008-08-04T20:39:00.000-07:00

hey hey hey!!! wats up people?? hmm. for mine ok la. it's just that having my up and downs recently. well, haven been talking to kak diana much lately. which explains why i miss damn badly!! hmm, ok, i got attached again! oh my good!! i still wonder why when i want to be single, i get attached again!! hmm, i don't know la. serious.

school was ok, and a few week ago, amira get fauzi number for me! thanks meera! wee!! but hey, he's my senior je ok. tk mo jealous tau orang tu. and i ups and down with papi(which he wants me to call him). he scold me, vent his anger to me. but ok, i shall not bring up the past. it's all over now. i just love u so much la papi! and he realises his mistakes and yesterday's message really touch me. u want to know?? hmm, restricted to selected people only! haha! maybe wat my friends is true. let him crawl to u., which, he practically, did. and i immediately call him as soon as i got his mesage. and here's a cute thing. he cried!! aww.. well, it reminds me of kenneth. heh! ok mas, stop it! but hey! its true. last time kenneth pn same jugak cm tu. cry. but papi's cry really kinda, made me laugh. but its ok. oh come on! big boys don't cry! so, cheer up baby! bout the meeting, i not so sure too. i just hope its nxt week. ok, this week confirm i tk free. soo bz with stuff. just hope tat i'm freaking free for him nxt week!

and my pitch is tomorrow. but i'm all prepared, well, almost! coz it soo nervous and i think mr nick will be there as my first lesson will be him. and i just hope that my pitch is good. and plus! nervous. why?? like duh! fauzi's class is right at the opposite! i mean, i should give the best, but argh!! okok. i shall not mention fauzi's name anymore. later, orang tu marah/jealous.

okok. why am i soo potek! but seriously, i am. tadi, i went to cheers to my mag and air, i tk prasan dan ade pt situ. den, teros kene panggil potek! ergh!! but its ok. DA BIASE DAH! heh! potek la, ketot la, boncet la, kenit la.. ape lagi?? sape lagi nk tambah tambah? dipersilakan tambah menyambah.. heh!

i bought myself a new shades! from ping that is, my classmate. it cost me 13 bucks!my other shade, which i wear it for ravi's photoshoot, it cost me 5 bucks! soo cheap!

i love babies!! ok, tats so random. got to go. tata!

2008-07-17T10:36:00.000-07:00

hey bloggy!!! miss u guys soo much!!! hmm.. i think i should change my font!! da basi ler font nie... wait ar... hmmm tats better!! haa! so lame right?? hmm... a lot of things happen really. well, okok la. not tat alot la.. hmmm....

here's a news: i broke up. yeah.. its been 2 weeks plus.. don't ask me why but i don't wanna talk bout it. yeah, its hard. but i have to accept it. and i accept it already. its ok. but whether i'm single or not, it still the same. uys are after me. well, not to show off or shiok sendiri la, but its the fact.. hmm. no?? ok... lets change topic...

went to the school gym yesterday, during p.e la. u think i go gym during normal hours ker?? no way!!! tu pn syira ask me to go. me, meera, syira, syazwan, si han, jerome went. its was fun(miss my gym moments with my ex!), tiring(duh! long time never go ok!), and frustrating(well, maybe...). coz farhan(the sports management guy) torture me!! well, no la.. well, maybe both?? i was in the gym and shortly after tat, he's there. like wth! i really dun like it when people interupt my gym moments.. serious! i prefer it alone.. its more fun doing it alone.. can exercise, can see guys(opps!! mas, stop it ehk!!). haha. and there two or three hot guys there, excluding farhan. hmm... and now my body aching seh.. ok.. when was the last i went to the gym?? can anybody guess?? it was a few months ago... and tat was the nice moments with my ex tat is. haiz....

and sch was fun. i had food poisoning. yeah, damn sucks! and now, i woke up and i vomitted. i don't know wats wrong with me!!! my body is weak every day.. its this time?? is this time for me o go far away?? hmm... i dun really know. i have to write lyrics. yeah lyrics. back to my 'roots' again. haha. hart, ite macpherson guy, ask me to write lyrics. yeah.. bout break up. aik, cm tau jek nie. haha!! i try to give u asap k.. hehe....

hmm.. talk to amir yesterday, damn! i'm getting sewel seh! haha!! serious! every night i laugh with him! haha! like laughing gas seh! every night i kol him, talk to him, kacau him(he kacau me oso!) laugh like mad person seh at night.. haha he confess his feelings to me, but i told him to prove it to me. haha. yeah.. prove to me.. haha. amir is from ite simei oso.. haha.

hmm, one topic: why guys dislikes minah tudung?? yeah. i mean, ape dosa minah tudung smpi drg tk suker?? ehk.. bukan sume minah tudung baek pe. yeah, honestly, i pn ade setan i jugak. yeah. i kai tudung pn, setan i tetap ade jugak. setan i tetap ade k... hmm... eloborate more...

2008-06-13T15:40:00.000-07:00

hey bloggy!! hmm.. sorry bout not updating a few days ago. coz i was tired and i finally got a hair cut!! singapore is getting hotter don't u think?? tats why i cut my hair!! muahaha!!! fie was not happy and he even joke tat he want to cut botak!!! stop it ehk!! haha!!! i tok to him last night and he was watching rainbow?? i don't even knw wat movie is tat!! haha!! hmm.... here'a a little something...

this morning i watch the oprah wifrey or her last name sounds like tat. haha!! and for those who have heard 'the osmonds', might me wondering wat am i talking about. hmm... actually their song is pretty nice. hmm.. they are very popular in the 1970's to 1990's. and guess wat. the msmonds family is a pretty large family. 100 people includes grandchildren and great grandchildren!! yeah!! serious!! george and olive osmonds have past away. so sad.. hmm...

and i didn't really do much these days coz i'm damn boring. yeah, just lazy-ing around. tomorrow i have a wedding to attend at boon keng. i'm going with mama and this particular cousins of mine is my fav!! its the only cuz that i'm close too, tat is my dad's side. to be honest, i'm not that close to pak long's side. tat his wife is frm indo. serious!! i mean ok la, i'm being mean here but ye la, sume orang dah senang kan, so jadi sombong la. da ade boyfriend, beh nk bangge2 kan ar? den lagi satu. kakak die pulak, bukan je kakak die je ehk, mak die jugak, tak abes2 tanye orang nye gaji. ehk!! lau gaji tu kecik, buat je la hal kecik. lau nk besar, keje keras. kan senang!! ugh!!!
and and and!!! lau da gemok tu, jgn kai baju ketat2!!! tk kene langsong!! yes!! i'm being mean.
dun dare me being mean ok. i ni kn, lau kutok2 nie, jgn tau. but kutok for the fact je. yg org tu, bangga kan da senang, sume sombong!! i dun care. any of our family members bace, pun tak pe. its the fact. and mak die pulak. g holiday nk, TENGOK LAKI PT JAIL TK NK!! ape nye isteri la nie!! ehk!! u tu kn, lom CERAI lagi so kene tengok, paham?? nk i ajar?? haha!! i ajar nnt susah. ataupun nk mama ajar?? tu la, ckp2 orang lagi, kan da kene accident!!tu la padah nye kalau tk nk tengok suami tk jail and menunjuk2. stop it ehk!! muahaha!!

yes folks!! i'm bad and i'm a critic. hehe!! but serious la. i dun like it wen my cuz ni jenis yg sombong!! stop it ehk!!

hmm... tats all la peeps. i'm kinda sick now and my teeth pain. update soon!!! muah!!!

2008-06-10T00:34:00.000-07:00

hey bloggy!!! i'm at kak wani's place and i'm using mac book!! yeah ar!!! i'm damn happy tat finally amira tok to mie!! yea!! hmm... i'll u wat?? i'll update more wen i get back home k!!! coz i need a haircut!!!

2008-06-08T20:04:00.000-07:00

hey bloggy!!! the hols are finally here!!! well for me tat is! not for fie i think. he have exams dis week and good luck k bam bam!! and bout my BIG transformation being a tudung gal has change me a lot!! yeah. from inside and outside. and mama pretty happy i can see that. and i'm starting to buy books bout islam. and i find that it is important for me to know more bout islam.(aik! panjang nye aku bebual!! haha!!) but its tru la. i have to knw more and understand more. just to make ure. u might never knw wat might happen in future right?? hmm. kak diana is happy also!! finally her adek angkat is wearing tudung and she say that confirm i look sweet. yeah, fie say that too!!! and why am i talking more bout fie?? coz i miss him ler!! ugh!!!

bout my exam, it was ok. i've studied and mr dominic told us that TWO people failed VP1!! wat the heck!! hmm.. i hope its not me!!*prays hard*.. dph?? hmm, its quite easy. but don't be too confident!! yeah!! tats the way...

hmm.. pretty sad that i lost friendship with amira, my former bestie. i tak sengaje nk blurt it out. i mean, people make mistake. and wat is it suppose to mean??? my attitude like a bitch?? masyallah!!! i'm not!! yes, i admit i have A LOT of guy friends, but tat doesn't mean that i'm a bitch. come on! i have a boyfriend and i love him very much and i don't wanna lose him! fie IS aware that i have a lot of guy friends, as long as it has barrier and don't cross over the line, its ok la. and i can't accept it when people call me a bitch!! hmm.. babe, u baru kene malu in front of 3 people, but me, i kene malu depan public. u pernah kene tampar in public? imagine if ur boyfriend scold u in public, tamapr u in public, malukan u depan public, confirm u malu kan?? kak diana, u knw who i meant. yes, khairullah aka kenneth. i'm not trying to show off or try to ask for sympathy, but babe, u baru kene malu sikit, u da give up. den wat if in future?? in future lagi rabak tau. i da pernah kene malu lagi rabak dari nie, lagi terok dari nie. think bout it. if this is the case, i don't think u are able to take the malu-ness in future. call me bad or harsh or wat, but this is wat i think and this is my opinion... think bout it kae babes?? :)

yes people, i may sound harsh to my point of view bout kene malu, but serious, its just my opinion. no hard feelings.

and i made a few new firnds along the way. i mean online ler. ArifMcNoel and Gayuh. both from manado, indonesia. finally!! getting to my roots back!! yup. both guys. and the fun thing bout making friend from indo is, u get to speak indo!! yes ar!!! bahasa indonesia gue makin lancar loe! dan emang sih, ngomong indo gak susah kok. gampang banget!! bahasa nya sih, mirip melayu, tapi telo nya bedah kali.tadi sore gue udah email gayuh resep cheesecake. fluffy marshmellow chessecake. enak lo. cobain deh!! mudah-mudahan gayuh bisa coba. gayuh! kalo udah buat, antarin di singapur dikit aja ya?? gue pengen rasain tau!! haha!!

and why so sudden i talk indo??!!! hmm, i miss indo and speaking indo! so those who wanna speak indo with me, speak la!! i don't mind. besides, speaking indo its a form of art.(chey2, macam paham je i nie!!). but serious, speaking indo is soo much fun!!! yes ar!!! just eaten my dinner, i cook my own dinner ok!! i cook kentang sambal, telor mata sapi or in malay in telor mata lembu and rice. simple and i'm full!! bored like one mad fella!! i can't wait to mit kak diana!! kak!! please mit up soon!! lau tk ngn fie, kiter due je ar!! please?? pretty please??? tolong ya!! gue kangen sama loe tau!!! argh!! tapi gue kangen sama pacar gue!! sofie, tk mo hilang!!! please! dimanakah engkau!!!

hmm.. this is e long blog entry tat i've wrote i think. a lot of this to pen down, a lot of thoughts, things tat u guys who bout me. but!! before i go, here's a few new language/meaning that u guys can learnt. enjoy!!

ana uhibbuka=i love u(this is for girls say to guys)_arabic
ana uhibbuki=i love u(this is for guys say to girls)_arabic
betek=boring_indo
capek=tired_indo
pacar=boyfriend/girlfriend_indo
cowok=guys_indo
cewek=girls_indo
gampang=easy_indo
udah=finish_indo
imut=cute_indo
tante=aunt_indo
om=uncle_indo
bokap=father_indo
nyokap=mother_indo

hmm... that all for now. i'll update more kaes??

enjoy reading!!

2008-05-28T22:39:00.000-07:00

hey bloggy!! hmm... i was feeling kinda down these few days... coz firstly, my DPH is failing really badly!!! serious!!! i really wanted to give up but fie told me not to. he say, 'tak mo give up, there always a second chance.'... but for me, maybe there is, maybe not. i have no hope seh.. serious!! but thanks hun for giving me endless support and encouragement!! muahhh!!!! second is my COM G!! tat one is a sure fail!!! but remember mas!! wat fie told u!! yeah... i mean.. try harder... even if u dun do well, just try. who knows its works... hmm.... feeling kinda sleepy right now, but i'm still here... BLOGGING!!!! long tyme since i blog... kinda miss it... and plus!! damn lazy to change the blogskin!!! serious!!!! haha!!!! and just now got phase test and mr dominic told me that i have to polish up my photoshop skills. and i 'm like... ok...

and this friday is my deadline for my coffee table assignment!! argh!! a lot of things to do, so little time!!! argh!!! i have no hope seh! serious!!! but mas!!! please!! okok!!! i have to relax and try my best!! yeah!!!

phase test was hard and challenging!! but i dun knw. i dun think i done well. but i'm just hoping that i do well. and kesian seh meera. kaki saket pon datang skola. but babe, u take care kaes!! muah!!!!!!

hmm... just now after school, i went home with fie and gang, hmm.. well.. we walked to eastpoint and eat there.. except for me.. i'm kinda lazy to eat and tired and stress as well!!! tats why... sorry guys coz i tk makan tadi!! sorry!! and i can see tat fie was kinda tired, no!! not kinda but damn tired!! like poor thing seh.. he school in ite simei and he live in bukit panjang!! ya!! serious!!! far right?? i kesian seh ngok die... pity him seh!!! alalala bam bam!!! he kept telling me that die tk sabar nk tunggu motor.. yeah hun, i knw... so that its easier for u... sabar je la u... and talk to him on the phone just now, but tu pn skejap coz i was kinda disturbing his sleep!! sorry popot!! and he told me tat die tk sabar nk ngok i kai tudung!!! yeah!!! i can't wait to sayang!!! and if many dun knw, i've think through... i mean i pakai tudung bukan kerana fie, tapi untuk diri i sendiri... and its for my own good. da lame i tunggu org yg betul-betul put in effort in changing me and i think fie score it. yeah... with him in my life, i want us to last. i love you muhammad sufie!!!i felt that he's my mr right, insya allah..

hmm... i'll upload it nxt tyme kaes!!! hehe!!!

2008-05-28T18:04:00.001-07:00

hey bloggy!! hmm... i've updated yesterday but didn't manage to post it, so, here i am!!! yeah!!! argh!!! my dph assignment is not done yet!!! argh!!! dam piss off!!! and tomorrow is my deadline!! and my dph is failing!!! haiz!!! i got no hope seh.. serious... i just feel like quiting!! but fie say i can't. yeah... he's right. there's always a second chance. but for me, there is no second chance. i'm just soo afraid that i might not have second chance. den my com g some more!! tomorrow after school i'm staying back to finish up my com g and i hope that i will finish it. haiz....

yesterday went back home with fie and gang. walk to eastpoint and i can clearly see that fie was tired. damn tired!! alalalala... kesian die... and summore he live in bukit panjang!!! school in ite simei!!! haiz... pity him... but i must say that fie has brighten up my life. he showed me the meaning of love and i dun wish to leave him!!! serious!!! popot, if u reading this or ur gang, just wanna say that i love u many2!!! i miss u syg!!! thanks for all the encouragement and the endless support that u gave me!!! i tk tau how to repay u sayang!!! and i knw that u tk sabar nk tunggu i kai tudung!!! wait till june k!!!! yeah... i'm changing my image. i've think through and i've decided. i'm changing not because of fie, but its because of my heart. and i'm happy with fie. and i hope, with fie and my new image, it will change my life and my perception of life. man!! so cheem seh!!! hmm... later going to airport... haiz.... k la guys... i gtg!! bye!!!

29/may
9.59 am

2008-05-23T06:47:00.000-07:00

hey bloggy!! hmm... its been a while since i blog... hmm... a lot of things happen really... well... ok la... not so much.... welll i'll tell u part by part...

ravi's projects. hmm... its went well.. its not like we plan... but it works.. maybe there is a slight problem here and there, but we manage to overcome it..

hmm... i went to see congkak with fie( my boyfie!!).. hmm.. its not tat scary la.. just that the sound effect tat makes it scary.. and i scream like mad seh!! haha!! luckily he's there.. if not, i'm dead!! haha!! hmm.... i went for my shoots den go mit him and i was late!! yeah!! i promise that i'll meet him at 4.30 but i reach there ard 4.50! argh!!! i was so rushing seh!! wan and mas(we share the same name!!!) accompanied him and wen i saw mas outside, fie was kinda pissed off!! man!!! i swear i'm not gonna be late again for dates!! i feel bad seh!! really bad!! sorry popot!! so sorry!! please forgive me?? peace no war??

hmm.. fie was kinda fun guy, caring, understands me, well.. our course is kinda similar... he's in multimedia technology... and thanks to him, i woke up to my senses(thanks sayang!! i dun knw how am i gonna repay ur kindness).. ya... serious.. because of him, i realize that love takes up time... and its a process.. and we dun have to rush it.. take it slowly... and we're taking slowly... slow and steady... even though i met his fwens, well, not all, but i think i can click well with his fwens.. i mean i must and i have too.... and like the opposite.. he have to click with my fwens...right?? hmm...

but seriously, i'm very happy with him!! serious... hmm... i'm kinda sleepy... no!! damn sleepy!!!

2008-03-30T20:55:00.000-07:00

heyllo!!! long time no update!! wahaha!! hmm... something happen to me?? hmm.. yeah...

lets see.. i went to malaysia and then i thought maybe i would go there and study there?? ok.. its not that singapore has no future or watsoever. but its just that i want to try something new. and ok.. admit! singapore is cool, but i want to try something different. in malaysia, the system there is different. besides, its damn cool there. and its much easier for me to find a job(just found out that my cousins all have their own company!!), which makes, pratically, easier for me to find a job there..

or maybe going to Lim Kok Wing University.. and yeah.. i knw.. dafi went there.. acha septriasa went there too.. and its not because i wanna go there just because of that, coz its much more easier.. and besides, moost of my relatives are there too.. and its seems like mummy is happy there...

and well.. kinda embarrasing wen my cousins ask where is my uncle. coz my uncle is in jail. and serious. i mean, how long can YOU keep this secret?? sooner or later, people will know. u knw.. people are not stupid ya knw. how long can YOU lie to these people?! TELL ME HOW LONG!! ok.. i may sound mean here, but its just that, look. its ur dad. ok.. u are embarrass bout ur dad in jail, but come on!! these people will know!! trust me!! its just being stupid!!! cousins are all looking at me like i'm sort of a liar!! please!! YOU knw who u are.. hope the person is reading this.. i'm not the right person to talk bout this but hey!! i care bout u!! bleahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

okok... we went to eat there.. shop there.. i slept at obek said's place, where i met abang faki, my best abg sedare!! and his nephew too, sya'aban. nice name huh?? haha.. he's damn cutie!! i miss tat lil boy!! den we went to eat at a tom ya place. satay kajang.. have u heard bout it?? hmm.. its damn nice!! well.. most singapore's satay only offers just little meat and sooo wayyy little gravy, satay kajang offers u with big piece of meat!! a lot of gravy!! plus plus plus!!! chilli go add into ur gravy!! haha.. i bet u guys are hungry right!! haha.. serious!! damn nice!!! the meat is soo tender, juicy... yum!!!!!!

hmm.. alot of people miss me?? haha.. i miss u guys!! especially meera!! i miss u babe!!! really!!! i miss kak diana too!!! my best kak angkat ever!!!miss my pal!! and damn!! miss my piillow!!! i thought i could watch 'duyung', but no time. its like tue-fri, WHERE GOT ENOUGH TIME!!haha.. and i hope to go there soon(which i'm going to JB this sat to send my baju there!!), and i want to watch evolusi KL drift soooo badly!!!!!! serious!! i want to watch that!!! coz.... syamsul yusof is soooo wayyy hot!! plus!! diana danielle, fasha sandha, aaron aziz, igram dinzly is acting as well!! its damn cool!! i can't wait for the cd!! but hey!! if it make in singapore's market, i'll be the first to watch it!! wahaha!!! and the car is damn cool and nice!!! wee!!! syamsul yusof is dato yusof haslam's son. he's cute!! i mean syamsul yusof ler... wahaha!! u knw wat.. they are my inspiration. the own skop production!! yusof haslam is like 6 million dollar man!! cool!! and most of his film is a boz office!!!! wow!!! its damn great!!!

hmm... wat else?? i have a crush on joe jonas?? haha.. its the jonas brothers!! i love their song' when you look me in the eyes'.. u guys should hear it!! hmm... i'll try if i can upload it here.... hmm.. i don't think i can.. but here's the link..

http://stargurl45.imeem.com/music/Ni2VyL_i/jonas_brothers_when_you_look_me_in_the_eyes/

here... hope u guys enjoy ya!! hmm.. well guys.. i've talk alot now... i'll update soon!!!

chows!!

ps: kak diana, hope to meet u soon!! meera, make plans ok?? =)

2008-03-16T07:48:00.000-07:00

hey!!!

sometimes i really wonder why i blog in the morning but not at night!! haha.. sometimes, i really ever wonder why the world is small!! haiz... yesterday, i went to my cousin's wedding.. and guess who i saw!! kamsani!! ya.. kamsani.. some may remember him from teenage icon, and duh.. he's my sch mate! but nevertheless, its ok.. anyway, i thought he was there helping or wat la.. well.. he IS helping.. but then i discovered a new thing bout him.. he's my cousin!!! yeah!! he is... my mom side la.. haiz.. seriously, the world is small right??

hmm.. wat else?? i accompany mama go airport yesterday.. cik pita going umrah... and she'll be back next mon... well.. some achievements her sons and daughter did. saiful, the eldest one, poly student, who is formerly ITE student, now working, i think. syazarina, the second one, just gotten her A level's cert, going to NIE. shafiq, just gotten his O level's cert, made it to poly... cool huh?? hmm.. hope cik pita arrive in singapore safely...

anything else?? hmm.. i watch alvin and the chipmunks!! on the net that is... cute la those chipmunks!! the overall was nice, very entertaining. hmm.. perhaps, nice scene shot.. i give 4/5.. well.. i sound like movie critic!! haha!! well.. thats all for now...

i'll update soon...

oh ya... dana, i'm happy that ure back babe!!! i miss u babe!!

2008-03-12T09:44:00.000-07:00

hey hey hey!!! damn bored now.. school starts at 1 today... by right, starts at 930 i think, but no DPH lesson!! woohoo!!! i mean e morning lesson.. hehe... so today only got vp1 tutorial, vp1 lecture and PDH afternoon lesson!! yay!! actually plan to wake up at 9 but then, amira call me in the morning!! haha.. but its ok... den i thought i can sleep back, but i can't! haha.. but its ok.. but i manage to have breakfast with my peeps at my house!! haha.. tats great!!

hmm... i got the models ready, cammy, no. tripod, no. props?? maybe yes... haha.. all thanks to kak dayah and my best bro, abg hairi!!! yay!! thanks people!! mas sayang kamu!! thanks for being my models of course!! haha.. kak dayah was so happy wen i ask her to be my model!! haha.. den abg hairi. i ask him, den he say ask kak dayah, so kak dayah agreed!! woohoo!!

u knw wat?? i still can't get over him i swear!! i dun knw why seh!!! everywhere, there must be things tat reminds me of him!! argh!!! but i have to forget him, by hook or by crook!!! yeah!! tats the way!!

hmm... having fever this few days,, coz its raining here!! argh!! damn fucking cold!! keep getting flu!! argh!!

hmm... tats all for now i guess... kinda bored now.. but nah.. its ok... have to find something to do...

oh ya.. before i forget, i'm loaning e cammy today!! wee!!!!

cheers!! have fun reading!!

;)

2008-03-12T00:15:00.000-07:00

kinda feel different now.... i dun knw y.. just diff... like after vp1, amira's different... i dun knw y... i just want to knw why... i mean, i just wanna knw why.. babe, just tell me...

2008-03-10T23:28:00.000-07:00

hey people!! i damn miss u soo much!! a lot of things happen!!!! and yup... i still can't get over SOMEONE!!! haha... tats e fact ok!!! hmm.... lets start shall we??

1. MR BOI's shoot was amazing!!! i get to play as extras!!! and mira too!!! well.. e whole entire PVA and PVB!! haha.. ok la.. i get to experience what is it like to be in a whole production process... for last week, sadly, was our LAST shoot!! but nah.. its ok.. den i met irah, my bestie!! acccompany her go find zimmy's present. and let me tell u this, her present is wayyyyy to censored! haha... must i mention it here??? nah...

2. hmm.... get over him!!! i guess u knw wat i mean by that?! yeah... i still can't get over him!!! argh!!! i did try my best, but i can't!!! seriously, i can't!!! i still do love him!! but, he got a lady by his side oredy... but i just can't!! arggh!! help him god!!

3. finally!! cn loan e cammy frm sch!!! canon digital DSLR 400D!!! yay!!! haha... and its for my project la...e theme is love... and i got my models ready!!! thanks kak dayah and abg hairi for being my model!! hehehe... show me good stuff ok!! hehehe....

4. hmm... wat else?? cn i mention that i knw wat to write, but dun knw how to type on blog?? get it?? hmm.... argh!!!

okok... people... i try to update more often k...this time, more stuff k...

okok... to my peeps like leona, arynne, amira, and those who know, sorry for e delay.. kinda lazy, opps!! to update e blog... hehe... and here i am...

2008-02-12T09:00:00.000-08:00

hey ppl!! i'm in sch right now so while waiting for e class to start, why not i start blogging for a while?? hmm.. haha.. poor amira.. she soo stress with the projects and stuff AND she might think of quiting for rezza's project?? no?? hmm.. its ur choice babe!! i'll support u all the wway!! yeah!! yeah.. true.. i cn understand tat with all the porjects and stuff, cn be quite, or maybe, too stressful!! i admit, i'm kinda stress right now.. but i want experience.. hmm...

hmm.. i can REALLY see tat all of my classmates are reaaly stress now!! yeah.. those who are not in rezza'a project are already stress!! and those who are in rezza's projects, argh!!!! shit ar!!! now i more stress!! ya la... i'm not worrying bout valentine's day or WATSOEVER!! i'm gonna be alone this valentine's day.. hmm... i do admit, i still cannot get over 'c'.. but life has to go on... he just left a big scar in me.. deep in my heart...

hmm... e class is late again now... everytime its like this.. haha.. but PV0801B still rocks!! i may not be clase to them, but they still rocks my life!! mas sayang all of u!! and i will ok!! bluek!!! promise!! i wonder when are we going to start the class.. hmm... but hey.. before i forgot, i got a meeting with melissa, e producer of this project. hmm.. a few of them want to quit. and i cn understand why. i wish i could quit, but... hehe.. amira, u knw i knw la ye.. but hey!! i like e way he works on set! his discipline, hmm face?? no la... where got.. haha.. true la!! then rezza ask me to do a mini tv usin an ice-cream sticks.. it sounds easy, but i'm now doing it.. my video production drama, just e story only completed.. e storyboard, scripts, pitching!! argh!!! den 3D projects... haven do yet la seh!!

haha.. okok.. i'll update to u guys later okes... promise will be more!! ok ppl... chows!!

2008-02-09T22:25:00.000-08:00

hey people!! i had an okok day yesterday coz i went to e zoo. damn smelly seh... i swear tat was my last time going there! whole body smells!! stinks!! haha.. went with kak wani, cik som, ayu, ain, kak yan, kak ana, abg izam, abg farid, my mum and baby rika!! rika andresha!! nice name huh!! tbut tat is kak ana's baby!! hmm.. waiting for abg farid and kak wani's turn!! soon.. maybe next year!! haha.. they're getting married next year!! on valentine's day!! woohoo!! sweet kn?? haha... common la u see animals there... haha den u see wat?? aliens?! haha...

tribute to ah meng, singapore's icon for 50 years. he died yesterday.. so sad to see him go.. i love u ah meng!! i swear!! haha.. but its not wrong to love orang hutan right?! haha...

den got a news from irah. she say she's getting engage!! i mean serious!! this yr i think. with zimmy. aww.. tats so sweet of u guys! but i did told her to think bout it first. its not a small matter. u have to think bout it thoroughly. i mean come on, its a big step. she she agreed!! tats babe! think bout it ferst ok.

den just talk to rezza, my senior. we were talking bout his pm at msn. cool la seh.. i mean mtv add and stuff.. damn cool.. and its a confirm tat i'm in!! den he ask me whether i'm confident in my role or not, and duh!! i AM confident!! mas is always confident!! haha.. but sometimes not la.. i cannot be too confident. over confident cn be bad, under confident cn be bad as well.. so i'd sat okok confident. ok? no?? hmm...

next fri is offical! okok.. valentine's day is the day before tat ok.. i mean next fri i'm not going to sch.. why?? good.. GOOD QUESTION! i'm going back to my sec sch, which is bedok green sec, to take my art piece back. i'm taking my art piece back is because i want inspiration. ya.. inspiration for my upcoming project with rezza. need all the help i can get form mr muhammad! he's my best art teacher!! i miss u la cher!! i swear!! hey.. i got a THREE for my N levels ok!! wanna see my slip?? hmm perhaps i'll take a pic den i upload kaes?? kinda happy tat i got a three!! my target was four or five.. but i got THREE!! damn happy la seh!! hmm...

haha..this morning, was chatting with amran, my friend form malaysia. how i knw him?? hmm.. from myyearbook.com. come on guys, u should have tat account. i mean go. its quite similar to friendster, facebook and stuff, but i find this one is much more fun!! haha... kinda fun talking to him.. he broke off with his girlfriend.. aww... poor thing.. i'm not sure wat is e reason.. amran.. hmm.. kinda fun to chat with, charming.. serious.. never lie!! i swear!! sheck out his profile la.. wahahahaha...

okok.. it seems like i swear is my fav word now.. hmm.. i dun knw why also... hmm.. tomorrow got no madrasah! finally!! but wait, my projects, all, haven't completed yet!! good!! tomorrow i cn doo all tat!! i think.. ;).. mon got sch, got meeting, aiyoo!! cn die like tat!! but like people say, never say die!! ya!! haha.. mas will never give up, okok.. maybe at some point i will.. but most of the time.. no ok!!

okok.. tat was my longest blog entry i think.. i'm sure u guys don't wanna read it.. but just tag me aites!!

chows!

2008-02-05T20:40:00.000-08:00

heyloo!!!! sorry la i nv update e blog... been busy with my projects and stuff.... haha.. job sheet 2?? hmm... got the idea oredy.. but haven write on paper.. hehe.. den now i got a new job!! well.. no pay i think.. haha.. just werking with rezza, renny and gang with their advertisment... its for myv.. haha... i got e part!! as... art department!! den i ask renny if i cn take one more role.. then he say cn.. and guess wat i take?? haha....... make up!.. yeah.. but he still need e art people.. but nah.. its ok.. i'm cool with it.. no pay its ok.. but as long as i got experience, its ok... but wat i knw is rezza is going to be damn strict with us.. but its ok.. SERIOUSLY!! coz i'm sure, in the real world, real working enviroment, its going to be much, much, much more srtict!! haha... and i cn assure tat!! wat matters to me is, EXPERIENCE!! tats all i care!! no pay, its ok!! i'm not even piss at it.. haha.. but serious la.. just now, renny's face like damn serious la sia.. my stomach 'small' u knw!! wen he talk, like damn serious. but tat is wat e industry does wat!! serious!! dun believe, ask mr nick!! rezza!! renny!! mr dominic!! davp students and lecturers!! hahaha... siaw ar me?? no?? haha.. just happy la... wee!!! finally!! woohoo!!!

den mr willian told us bout e bbq pit!! 29 feb, here i come!! pay 10 bucks!! no problem!! as long has my babes, cn oredy!! hmm.. i wonder PVA at where?? hmm??? wei!! dun think like tat k!! come on la!! i dun like aidil and tats tat!!! just tat PVA class kinda cool!! but PVB still rocks ok!!! yeah!!! stand up with me and sream... PVB OI!!!! haha!!! at east coast!! very near sia!! but far to most of my classmates!! poor babies!!! no.. not poor babies!! poor classmates!!ya.. tats e correct term!! yeah!!

hmm.. and there's new projects coming up as well.. 3d!! due date on 19 feb!! arh!! den the job sheet 2 due on 21 feb!! aiyoo!! but nah... its ok.. hmm... wat else?? i think tats all la..

so?? how u like my new blog?? nice?? thanks to diana!!! haha... comment ya!! chows!!

2008-02-02T03:35:00.000-08:00

first of all, i would like to apologize to my babes like jessica, amira and those who knws. i knw i was quite mean n direspectfull towards u all. i realize my mistakes. jess, i knw u mean well and was telling me bout c, thanks a lot babe!! and e msg u send me at fwenster, for me its a bit lame, but thanks a lot anyways.. and i hope ure not angry with me. amira, i'm very sorry, sorry for wat i've done towards u. i knw both of u mean well and help me. i can't forget for wat happen. thanks a lot babes...

okok.. now back to happiness!! okok.. i'm not updating my blog coz been really busy with projects and stuff... kinda blank right now..

hehehe

2008-01-19T19:51:00.000-08:00

hey peeps!! back i guess... went out with mama just now.. went to tampines just now to buy her thread or something.. den went on to tampines mall... pay courts bill.. den went to food culture to eat. i ate ban mian.. it was ok la.. nice.. e noodle was sooo springy!! so nice!! e soup was nice as well...

den accompany mama go geylang.. met cik saedah.. kinda long time no see den.. hehe.. kinda miss her.. ate again.. beef steak hot plate.. wow.. kinda full.. wow!! den i bought a ring!! not engagement ring ok.. well.. looks like one.. haha.. but nice la...silver!!! and it cost 12 bucks!! by right its 15.. but e owner saw tat i fell in lobe with e ring, she gave me 12 bucks instead!! woohoo!!! nice right?? now sending a message to abg yanto, ang yid's friend and bestie. he's a former floorball coach and i need him to answer my question. its soimething like interview la.. its kinda stress la but its worth it. fun as well... hehe.. now so stress la seh!!

my deadline project is on thursday!! cn go crazy la seh!!

ok la... b4 i go crazy even more... i'm not going to update my blog TAT SOON.. okok...

peace peeps!!

2008-01-18T21:10:00.000-08:00

hey hey hey!! miss u guys!! sch in ite was fun!! more fun than sec sch!! and i make new friends of course!!! and iirah kept asking me to update my blog! which i'mdoing now!! haha...

my classmates.. hmm... ok la... syazwan, my former sch band mates since pri sch, same class. and ok la... a bunch of bitch, or maybe a few. i kinda hate them!! its like she flirts with all guys!! i hate tat kind of people. and arh!!! feel like slapping her face man!! seriously.. she really deserves a slap from me!!! and even with teachers!! for godness sake la!! please!!

she thinks she so pretty per?? hey!! hello!!! my mum more pretty ok!! wen i sae her face, feel like slapping her face la seh!!! shit u bitch!! her attire its likie super tight! she dun have e body la...

i saw her at cafe one, den this bunch of guys say she pretty!! haha!! bunch of blinds!! but i'm not trying to say tat i'm pretty or wat la but at least i'm swit right?? haha..

arh!! okok.. stop talking bout her ok!! makes me wanna slap her even more! hmm.. deal or no deal!! arh!! i love it!! especially briefcase number 10!! haha.. love u la!!! chris hussey!! he's such an adorable dude!!!1.92m at e age 17?? wow!! he's turning 18 by the way... haha

hmm.. wat else?? i actually got a lot to talk.. but cnt come out!

2008-01-08T18:02:00.000-08:00

hi peeps!! just an update ok... not going to type tat long like usual... or maybe yes?? hmm... lets decide.... okok... today was a fun day la seh!! my class, pvb, rock e house!! woohoo!!! e cheer was fun!! my class manage to win e second prize.. ok la.. but not bad... btu nevertheless... pvb rocks!!

okok.. i dun knw wat to type knw... coz like i'm supperrrrrr tired!!!!!

2008-01-06T23:11:00.000-08:00

okok!! admit here!! nervous for sch tomorrow!! arh!!! crazy me!! just ironed my uniform and skirt!! going with my senior from bgss... she's in higher nitec in retail i think.. and luckily she going to accomppany me!! phew!!!!

have to look good for tomorrow!! and guess wat?? i have a fan!! and guess who?? its my bestie, iirah!! love u babe!! haha... thanks... i mean blog!!

and sooooo tomorrow's my first day of sch.. just now when to city plaza.. eat arnold!! nice!! neat!! then i saw my cousin, dun knw her name but she in simei as well.. oh shit!! den i met my 'childhood enemy'... haha.. well.. he's not my enemy anymore la... i regard him as my abg jek... haha... he's hidayat, nek hawa's son... i tot who!! haha... he look different la seh!! hmm... more... handsome maybe??? haha

haha... ok la peeps.. got to goo...

wanna sleep.. wanna join me??? haha.. okok.. tat is wat happen when mas is super tired!! now u knw huh?? hahaha

2008-01-04T16:46:00.000-08:00

hello hello!!! i'm back!! at last!! haha... i met sahar just now... and he was still e shy one... still e one tat i knw since primary school... haha.. each time wen i saw him, i was so hyper!! but he take different course... info comm...haha.. i first met him at e administrative department... i just said hi to him... den i realize tat i forgot to bring e receipt for school fees!! luckily, one of e ite officer help me.... phewww!!!! wat a relieve... den i went to take my ez link photo... and man!! i was soo arh!! a lot of people in there!! but e photographer tat took my pics was hot!! haha... okok... enough la mas!! hehe... den when to e uniform section... so many people!! but nah... its ok....

and the uncle give me less change!! and my mum was mad at me!! but i bought extra stuff!! and it cost 134 bucks!! luckili, my mum was angry with me... pheww!!!!

when to kfc, bought buddy meal and at there oso a lot of people!! alamak!!!! wat telah happen!!

when home, tried my stuff tat i bought, the skirt and e pans are wayyyy big!! e skirt ok la.. just long.. but e pants!! aiyoo!!!! so big!! like i cn put my niece inside!!! haha...

later want to atter with my bestie mazlin.. her friend never follow... luckily....

haha... k la... got to clear my mess....

bye!!

2008-01-04T09:18:00.000-08:00

sch starting soon and 2day i'm going to buy my uniforms!! woohooo!!! or was it, ouh ouh... haha.. its kinda nervous coz i'll be seeing my future classmates!!! argh!!! but nah.. its ok.. at least i cn make new friends... i think.. haha... nah... its kinda nervous la seh!!

i'll be going with mazlin, my bestie(she graduate already!!).. tats y i drag her... but she will dragging her friend.. a guy!! i'm so damn nervous.. haha.. but nah... a guy??? wat?? but its ok la... maybe i cn make new friend with her friend.. haha...

i tot of going to take a shower, but abg yid is using e toilet!! den my dad. he haven fill in e giro form!! and i need it today!!! arh!!!!!!! driving me crazy!!! buying new uniforms means new life... and i'm behaving like i'm single... haha.. so?? like as it anyone care!!! like he lied to me.. and i dun entertain liars!!! and i'm buying a new shoes... i dun knw wat color.. but as far as i know, its black. some say black, some say any colour... but nah... i'll check later...

still waiting for e toilet i guess... i hope my dad will fill up e form soon...

gtg!! dad's out and i'm in!!!

toilet!!

haha..

2008-01-02T10:07:00.000-08:00

its hard for me now... hard... i really had enough!! i knw u wanted to start a new, but i just can't bring myself to tat... i just can't. its sooo hard.. hard for me... hope u understand... i dun knw how to tell u this but if ure reading tis, i want us to end. yeah.. end!! so sorry but i have a reason for tat.. my parents have knw bout us and my dad want us to end it. so sorry but will u let me go...???

if u love me, please... make sacrifice for all this.. maybe we will be back, or not.. let fate decide... let fate decide all this... kiter manusia hanya merancang, tapi allah yg menentukan...

my dad was so mad bout this... he told me to focus on my studies, if not... he will disowned me as his daughter.. u want tat to happen?? because i love my parentslah i have to let u go... i really have to.. and partly, i want to focus on my studies right now.. the dream... maybe i was not ready for this.. or maybe i was but things change...

i just don't want to repeat the same mistake all over again... just let me focus on my studies... and i knw u will be saying, i promise not to disturb u... but its hard! i just can't!! i admit, i do love my ex, but wat can i do?? its pointless right now.. i dun want because of relationship, i neglect my education...

sorry ????.... so sorry... maybe fate will bring us together.. maybe not...

let fate decides....

2008-01-01T16:40:00.000-08:00

am i in fantasy world?? or am i in reality?? tat is e thing tat i wanna knw.. hmm... kadang- kadang, cinta ni penuh dengan pergorbanan... ade duka, suka, sedih, perit dan selajutnya... kadang- kadang, kita tidak melihat cinta. memamg betol ape kata orang, CINTA ITU BUTA!!
tapi dengan hati yg suci dan bersih, kita boleh melihat cinta... dan kita diberikan otak untuk berfikir, hati untuk merasa dan mata untuk melihat. macam skarang ni, aku berada dalam satu kesulitan... dimana harus kah aku percayakn 'a' atau 'r'... hati ku ini sugguh perit. tak tahu sama ada haruskah aku putuskan hubungan aku dengan 'a'.. padahal, dia sangat mencintai ku.. tapi apabila 'r' memberitahu hal-hal yang tak patot ku dengar, aku merasa seperti aku ditikam berpuluh-puluh kali... di dada ku ini...

mengapakah aku selalu ditipu?? apakah salah ku ini tuhan??? mengapa apabila kita sangat mencintaikan seseorang itu, mesti ada alasan atau perkara yang buruk akan berlaku?? mengapakah?? aku sungguh tak mengerti....

kalau dihat dengan mata kasar, org itu memanglah baek... pijak semot pn tak mati... tapi... kalau dilihat dari hati, burok... seperti setan berbadankan manusia...

cinta... cinta.... sebab itu lah, aku benci jatuh cinta....

2007-12-29T12:53:00.000-08:00

hey peeps!!! aloha!!
yay!!! i got e course!! i nearly cried yesterday!! but its ok...
hmm.... yesterday, i tot i was late for the interview... but guess wat?? i'm not!!
oh well... i went out from kak wawa's place ard 1.35... walk to e bus stop and waited for e bus... (i have to take two bus here, mind u!!)
den bus 14 arrive. and i stop at nenek's place. bout 5 minutes later, bus 31 arrived...
and just imagine, i'm wearing high heels!!! my leg hurts alot!!!
and when i arrive there, its soooooo pack!! and i guess everyone stared at me coz i think i was wearing a pretty formal yesterday... but wat the heck!!!

come on!! first impression counts right!!! and yeah... then i met my former classmates. nabbs and ain... i was so shocked!! but tat was ok la... hmm.... and i must say it was kinda 'fun' seeing my future classmates... haha... but nah... its ok...'

and now mama is sick. and me!!! mama says her throat is red. mine.. hmm... i dun knw.. haven check yet... hopefully we get well soon.,.. all this thanks to abg farid... he got all e bacteria.. just kidding la abg yid!! wee!!!!

k la peeps... i got to go... been using e pc for bout for hours oredy...

tata!!

musicgal4lyfe....

ps: e deal or no deal guy, christopher hussey is kinda hot!! go check it out on 16 and 17 jan...
okok... i'm not gatal-ing here... wee!!!!

2007-12-28T10:14:00.000-08:00

hey peeps!!

yeah... today is my damn interview!! shit!!
haha.. its my digital audio and video production la... i'm just short listed only.... hope i can get into tat course... but even if i'm not enrolled into tat course, i have no regrets... yeah... no regrets... coz i've applied all the course tat i'm interested in.. and i have no regrets...

yesterday, i went for e career talk at bestway building with ????... and he accompanied me.. thanks sayang... but can i say something here. its so called a bit embarrassing coz most of the time, he was just fooling around... but after tat, he send me home... thanks sayang... really appreciate it alot...
but before tat we went to coffee bean for a drink coz we arrive early.. we arrive at 6.30 pm and e talk starts at 7.30.. so yeah.... and i was so sick last night!!

and in just a few more hours, i'll be heading to ite simei... and i'm going to be there alone... but its ok.. come on, u can't be with ur friends, family the whole time.. well.. maybe if u are nervous la... but i got to admit, i am nervous like hell!! arh!!! but its ok.. i just have to breath in and breath out... but i'm down with a major fever!! and a flu!! and cough!! arh!!! but nah... its ok... i'm use to it... haiz2...

please wish me luck ok... like now i'm at my cousin's place and she's helping me doing my hair!! come on!! when i really need a desperate help, i ask from her... and now she's been crown e head make up artist in her sch!! woohoo!! congrats kak!! she is like my make up artist ya!! hmm... maybe i can hire her as my personal make up artist ya!! haha... sorry kak!! wee~~!!! and i really have to look good later!! and damn!! i am nervous!! arh!!! she's helping me doing my hair later... haiz... ????, i wish u could be here... haiz... arh!!! bout four more hours, my future will be determind my future.. huh?? wat was i saying?!!!! okok.. salah2... bout four more hours, the interview will determind my future.... ok?? tats sounds right??

ok la... i gtg... my kak marah oredy...

i'll update soon bout my interview....

musicgal4lyfe.....

2007-12-26T20:25:00.000-08:00

i broke up with shafiq(weng weng)!! i hate him la!!! arh!!
he broke my heart!!! i judt dun understand y guy nowadays are so like wateva!!
like... arh!!! lets not talk bout him...

i have a new guy... he's in my fwenster list.. go find la... haha...
he from singapore poly... we did talk on e phone yesterday... and i'm meeting him tomorrow at tanjong pajar coz i have a career talk... and tomorrow is my results on which ite and courses i'll be taking... wee~~!!!!! cannot wait la seh!!

he name is ????... haha... go figure!! haha... he's 17 dis year... hmm...
he tall... aiyoo!!! y i always get guys who are tall!!! i knw la i'm short but he's 1.74m!! and i'm just 1.55!!
he say its cute.. ok la... cute.. but am i cute?? haha...

just now went to cik radiah's place..
went there den i fell!! at her house!!! i think my leg got bruises...
ala!! pain!!! arh!!! bluek!!

haiz... can't wait to met him la seh!!!
????, i love u la!!!
if ure reading this, hmm... i love u...
muackz!!!

k la people...
i'll update to u soon ok...
lots of love,

musicgal4lyfe...

2007-12-19T11:14:00.000-08:00

wee~!! i'm meeting my weng weng later!! at three!!
i can't wait la seh!!! like i said yesterday, i got my n level results!! yay!! eng, maths. i got 5. art, cpa, eoa i got 3... and.... my mly i got......... 1!!! yay!!!! i knew tat i could get 1!! yay!!! i'm so happy!! yesterday i got my yearbook.. and as i flip e pages, i look at weng weng's class... and honestly, he's cute la seh!!!! haha... except... he look different... hehe...

later meeting him at three.. bringing my yearbook and my results!!! and i really need a bigggggggggggggggggggggg hug from him.. he was mad at his work yesterday.. he scold vulgarities.. but i told him to relax... and i quarrel with my dad coz he's drunk!! i showed him my results, den he still ask me wat is this... then i was like.. dude!! that's my results la!!! den he told me tat my mum dun understand him all these years.. none of us understand him la... WATEVA LA!!! i dun even care!! then he told me not to tell my mum... den its my turn to be mad!! i told weng weng.. then he told me to chill... chill for him... luckily he told me to relax... if not.... arh!!! i really feel like hacking my dad sia yesterday!!! but.... ok mas... relax!!!!!!!! man... i really need a bigggggggggggg hug from him!!!! still have to wait... for another 4 hrs!!!! but its ok....

and i cried e whole night... apart from my results la... e other thing is my dad... cn i say something?? i hate him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arh!!!!!!!!!! weng weng!!! i cnt wait to mit u!!!!!

2007-12-17T19:34:00.000-08:00

wee~!!! my n level results is today!!! and i cried just now!!!
haha... yeah!!! i'm nervous, excited, arh!!! den my weng weng cnt make it today... he got werk!!! boo huhu!!!
i got nothing to talk bout ya peeps!!! too stress!!

2007-12-07T19:50:00.000-08:00

hey!!! i went expo just now with my mama dearest and cik pita(my second mum.. hehe)... i went shopping la!! expo got sale.. tats y...
den i went shop!! shop wat?? got la... girls stuff(hehe), my moma bought shoe(poor thing i dun have size!! bleah!!), i bought a bag(meant for next year.. hehe)its calvin and klein and guess wat?? its cost 60 bucks but sale price is 19.90!!! really!! serious!! worth it la seh!! den my popa gave me money!!! yay!!(wat mood he have seh!!)... but its ok... i have a lot of fun...

den i eat fish and chips at bedok south... and man!! e fish is sooooooooo not nice!! its hard!! e batter is salty!! hard!! ewwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!! bluek!!!!!

den now... hehe... i soo tired... i ran out of ideas...

hehe.. k la peeps!! talk to u later!!!! muakzzzzzzzzzz

2007-12-04T13:21:00.000-08:00

yay!!!! he call me!!!! finally!!!!!

i miss u too baby boo!!!! arynne!!! he call me!!!!!!!! yay!!!! he say he sorry!!! but its ok hun!!! i forgive u la!!!

thanks for e flowers u gave me!! and e gift!!! i love it!!! wanna know wat guys????? hmmm........... he gave me a card with how we first met, we broke up and we patch up!!! haha!!! and other thing, he gave me a watch!!! addidas watch!!! thanks hun!!!! thanks braceface!!!! opps!!!! ok la... badboy!!! noti boy!! how bout tat!!! boo huuhhuuu..

and arynne, he kirim salam!! he siad thanks!!! thanks for wat?? thanks for taking care of me!!! ala dear, just one day pe... but i will miss u!!! i will check out e today at e games and highlights ok hun!!! love u!!! and ya... i got to confess something here..

hun, u dun know how bad i need u right now. every step we take, brings us closer each day. and evern if u are in thailand right now, i will miss u.. but seing ur face in my cell, its not enough!!! my day won't be complete without u in my life. my life will be incomplete. like e song incomplete by bsb. every second, every minute, every hour, every day, my heart will be with u, forever. e way u swim in e water make me love u even more. ur smile, ur lips, make me love u more and more and more!!! not forgetting ur teeth!!(okok.. i'm bad here!! sorry hun!!) u make me eat my meals(if not, i will not eat!!), make me do sports with u(so tat i will be fit as always!! i know u hate my tummy!!) and sleep at e right time!!(ok, tats bad!!) and my behaviour(i will change!!! i promise!!!)

k la... i've confess wat i have to confess!!! arynne!!!! love u la!!! haha!! dear!!! miss u baby!!! irah!!! besties eva!!! water polo team!! gogogogogo!!! team singapore!!! oh ya... basketball(arynne!!!) haha

2007-12-04T12:36:00.000-08:00

he ya'll!!!

haha... i mish u badly!!! yay!! yeaterday went all e way to woodlands to mit iirah...
fun la seh!!! get to mit umi yeaterday!!! ok la, get all old stories since we were kids.. haha.. met her boyfie, zimmy. ok la... not bad... then i met salman!!! yay!!! honestly, he look wayyyyyyyyy better than in e pics!!! haha!!! his first impression really impress me la seh!!! haha ya... he was on the way to see him mum yesterday so we just talk for a while... haha...

den before i went to poly with my babe, mazlin, i met radin!!! honestly, i dun really see him yesterday!!! serious!!! radin!!! i dun see u coz its raining!! and my slipper!!! i have to walk slowly!!! if not later i fall down!!!

okok.. now bout irah. umi cook yellow noodles and i cnt eat yellow noodles!!! and yesterday, i vomit la seh at home!!! and now i itch all over my body!!! sucks la!!! i allergic to yellow noodles!!! arh!!!!! but its ok... haha...

now i'm pretty happy?? coz kenneth wee(hmm) appear in cna!!! yay!!!! haha

2007-12-04T00:33:00.000-08:00

yay!!!! one more day to irah's place!!!

miss her la seh!!! she's my primary school friend by the way... and radin will be joining me..(sebok jek.. hehe) and irah will fetch us from woodlands mrt!!! yay!!! cn mit her-at last!!! and mit umi!!! i miss umi like heaven!!!!

haha... wat i'll be wearing?? hmm... skinny jeans(standard la seh!!), maybe band t-shirt(coz maybe dropping by to sch tomorrow for lil band prac!! miss u guys!!!), or maybe a spag strap with jacket(not to make radin high la!!!!) and slipper. maybe bringing a bag.. haiz...

dis morning my dear sent flowers. he went to thailand last night!!! he said sorry and its ok baby!!! i forgive u!!! he also know tat i'll be going to irah's place 2morow. (die kirim salam.)

but hopefully he calls soon.. i miss u la hun!!!! i miss u badly!!! and ya. arynne told me to eat!! coz ken ask her to take care of me!!! boo huhu.. bad la u!!!! i lazy to eat. tats y... haha..

now chatting with irah and arynne. irah, sabar la.. nie, aku da update!! arynne, dun worry, i'll eat soon!!!

ok folks!! tats all for now!!! love ya!!! muakzzzzzzzzz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

huggies!!! toodles!!!

2007-12-01T20:59:00.000-08:00

hey.... i just came from my jogging session... haha.. yeah... i'm trying to make it regular...

and boy, i feel great!! radin accompany me just now.. radin is my pri sch friend.(thanks radin for e day!!) i had a good time just now...

yeah and i went to to my peeps place just to chill and there i met my ex!! his loss.. why??? coz i look hot just now!!! haha...wat do u expect??!!! me wearing shorts, spag strap and jacket... and i'm all covered with sweat!! wow!!! am i hot ar wat!!! boo!!!!

haha... yeah... kinda tired and sleeping... charging my mp3... den 'charge' myself... maybe later going to call radin... just talk... not more than tat!!!! siaw!!! huhu....

tomorow have to accompany my mum go sembawang... got wedding... haiz... so far sia!!! i live at bedok... but nevermind.. we're taking train... so yeah....

2007-11-23T15:38:00.000-08:00

hey!!! i think i wanna take digital audio and video production!!! how bout tat?? cool huh??!! haha... i wanna take tat course becoz i love tat course and it sounds interesting.

but now, i have a bigger problem. here is e situation. there is two good guys in front of me and i have to choose one. its hard for me. both guys are good, cute, nice, fit my bill. but i have to choose one. i wonder who i hace to choose.

taufik(not taufik batisah ok??!!!), he good, always makes me feel love, but a bit of dirty minded.(all guys are dirty!!), but i haven meet him before.

then there's my ex, can i just call him 'caucasian guy', he's nice, always make me feel love, not as dirty as taufik and 'bad boy'. haha

here's a thing, i love them both but i have to choose one of them. tell me wat am i supppose to do??!!!

2007-11-20T15:44:00.000-08:00

hey!!!

finally i fine, again!!! i'm down with a flu for a week, and i'm back to myself again!!! yay!!! but e guy that i used to like is doing somerhing stupid!! he wants attention!!

currently, 'helping' people who have problems in myyearbook.com. tats me peeps!! i love helping people who have problems!!!

please!!!!

2007-11-16T20:03:00.000-08:00

cn u don't do anything stupid??!!!

it makes me sad!!!! it makes me cry!!!!

don't do it again!!!!!!!!!!!

hello!!!!!!!!!!!

2007-11-15T17:12:00.000-08:00

hey!!!! i've uploaded new pics at my friendster!! wanna see some??...

that's are two pics... haha...

my latest pics... wakakaka

i got my voice back!!! help a fwen!!

2007-11-13T13:02:00.000-08:00

yeah!!! i got my voice back!!! soo happy!!! how i did it?? patience!! tats e key!!! haha!! trust me! it works!!

just now wen out mif my cuzzin, dura. yay!!! not as fun as always.. coz we both sick la seh!! soo no mood to talk much!! haha

can't wait for saturday la seh!! i'm going to sentosa with mieza, c-kin. hopefullu tat 2 guys go.. hmm...

just help a fwen a few days ago. he post a fwenster bulletin saying tat he wanna break up with his gal. coz his gal never contact him for two whole months!! how bad is tat!! his name is daniel. know him from my pri sch fwen iirah. he's in my fwenster list. ok.. maybe i like him, but he's an american, and an emo!!! i never thought tat i might one day like emo guys!! arh!!! wat telah happen to me!! mas, come on!!!! but honestly, i find tat emo guys are kinda cute!! yeah!! really!!!
haiz.. now pretty worried bout him coz he knew the real story. iirah told me tat e gal has a new guy. i tot daniel is going to be mad at me, but i was wrong!! totally wrong!! in fact, he respested me, he said.i nearly had a heart attack!!! daniel, dun do tat again!!!! he's kinda sweet, honestly, cute!! i like him long time ago. ever since i added him in my fwenster list! wow!! tat was like, two months!!! hope he dun do anything stupid. please daniel!! don't!!! life has to go on.. trust me, its not worth it!!! hope he's reading this.

ok peeps.. i'm kinda sleepy now.. tat's it for e day!!! talk to u soon!!!!

timing was wrong!!

2007-11-12T01:05:00.000-08:00

it should be 1.05 am!!!

..........

2007-11-10T13:32:00.000-08:00

i lost my voice!! yay!!!

haha... such a stupid thing rite!! i woke up in e morning an discovered tat i lost my voice!!!

shitto!!!! nw i can't talk to anyone!!!! arh!!!! how am i goingto communicate with peple!!! wtf!!!

its ok.. haha

hey!!!

2007-11-08T12:34:00.000-08:00

hey peeps!!!

it's been a long time since i update my blog. my account got hanck n i'm freaking bored!!

i'm down with a really bad flu!!! arh!!! i've used onr box of tissue!!! my whole room a filled with tissue!!! arh!!!

been practising singing rihanna umbrella remix with my ex. just for a fun thing. haha... coz i'm bored la... haiz...

kinda blank rite nw.. ahhhhcoooooooo!!!!!

hmm...

2007-10-24T09:46:00.000-07:00

pretty bored this days coz i have no sch!! cunrrently waiting for my n level results and i'm bored!!

all i do is just slack at home everyday and do nothing. well except practising my rapping skills and writing songs. haha.. and eat of course!! haha...

i might grow fatter tat way! oh noo!! i can't grow fatter, can't i?? haha...

well, there's this guy who says he love me, but i'm not pretty sure bout it. u see, 'n' says tat he loves me but i'm worried bout his age. he's 15!! and i'm 16!! i noe tat love shouldn't count age but i did ask him y he like/love me and he says bcoz of my cute personalilty. haha... cute personality?? hmm... i have to see on tat.. haha...

but i have no comment. i noe most of u guys will be asking me, do u love him?? and my answer will be, i dun noe!! i dun noe whether i love him or not. he's a mix as well. malay american.. hot rite?? haha... i'm attracted to his personality coz maybe the way he talks to me. hmm...

i'm confused!! all i can say is tat, there is a lot of people who 'wants' me. all guys say e exact same thing!! i'm cute, friendly, hot.. but wateva!!! i dun give a hell care!! i dun think i'm cute..

haiz... kinda confused rite now...

and now my ex is killing me!!! he keeps calling me every single day!! i did told him tat i'm busy but he doesn't want to listen!! he says he love me but so wat? i couldn't care less!!! i dun give a piece if s**t!! he kept asking where am i, who am i with, girl or boy, arh!!!! can he just give me peace for a day? a week?? a month? a year?? or better yet, FOREVER!! arh!!! he's making me crazy!!!! 'd', please!!! stop bothering me!!!! i hate u!!!

tats it for nw peeps!! write later ya!!!

tired... zzz...

2007-10-21T11:27:00.000-07:00

i have my open house done yesterday n i'm soooo freaking tired!! help my mum do this la, do that la.. tired sia!!

but its ok.. tired but fun!! my cuzzins came, kinda fun ya noe!!

dun noe wat to type arh...

peace!!!!

i'm back!!!!

2007-10-16T14:09:00.000-07:00

yay!! i'm back!! i bought a mp4 yesterday n guess wat?!! i can't even use it!! i mean i n use it but wen e song almost finish, its says file system error!! wat e fuck sia!! i bought it with a fwen!! later i have to go to century square to get it fix!! kind of wateva sia!! i upload all song, pics, all!! arh!!!! stupid day for me!!!! i upload SLEEQ songs u noe!! arh!! i upload video still cannot play!! so stupid sia!!! arh!!!!!!!!!!!

i tOOk pics with slEEQ!!

2007-10-15T15:50:00.000-07:00

well... i should post this last week but i took pics with alyph n syarif last week!! the pic on e right is me n alyph... cool huh?? haha!! the pics on left is riff, kin(my fwen), me, alyph.. cOOl rite! haha.. i noe peeps.. i noe.. e pic on the right lOOk like as if i and alyph are couple.. but we're nt ok!! haha!! its just like fans n artis.. ttats all!! haha!! happi la tOOk pics with them!! i was down with a flu during tat time, but i came!! with a fwen of course!! i look different rite??? tats all i noe!! k la peeps!! i gtg... i'll update to u soon bout me

i broke up with him!!!

2007-10-02T12:11:00.000-07:00

yeah peeps!! i broke up with him!! he TWO TIMED me!!!

how dare him!! i thought he's single!! but i was wrong!!! i was soo stupid to believe wat he said!!

damn it u!! u'll gonna pay for all this!!! damn u!!

wat happen in sch..

2007-09-27T02:59:00.000-07:00

man!! wat a bad day!!! it rain heavily dis morning but its ok.

u noe what!! my sch skirt is all wet!!! my socks, my shoe, arh!!!!

then, i fell in the toilet!!! oh my gosh!!!! sooooo painful... but its ok... hahaz!!!!

haiz.!!!!

2007-09-26T05:49:00.000-07:00

hye peeps!!! i'm att!!! ya!!! on sun at 9.01 pm!!! haha... i lup him!!! he's nice, e seetest guy ever!!!!
well.. he may look like emo but hey!! i dun even care!! i counld't care less!!!! all i care is i lup him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! e previous guy in e blog i broke off... but now i lup him lots!!!!!! muakzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

a lot to write i guess??

2007-09-24T19:39:00.000-07:00

hey peeps!! i'm back!!
haiz... pretty stress with my n levels coming up.. and of course e lyrics...
been ok these few days.. nothing much has change bout me..
well.. maybe a bit...
been more active these few days.. active as in studies..
ya.. this week is gonna be my last week in bedok green... then i can focus more on my lyrics...
yay!! but still searching more ideas...
ya... haha..

now, in sch..
our mother tongue department have change our subs!! ya!!!
mly student will be taking chinese and chinese student will take mly!!
arh!!
both good and bad news.
the good news is tat my lao shi said that my chinese is VERY GOOD!! haha... lao shi is teacher...
hehe...
and e bad news...
well.. tomorrow we're suppose to have a role play but i told my lao shi that i don't want...
so... and guess what!!
she ask me to read chinese composition in front of the whole class!!
paiseh u noe!! arh!! then the chinese lao shi ask me if i have chinese blood...
well i said yes la!! of course!!
my dad is mly, my mum is chi+ boyan....
boyan is something like indonesian...
den the teacher say what u noe...
no wonder very pretty!!
den i was like... huh?? what?? me pretty? no la...
normal only wat....
haha...
k la peeps!! if i got e tyme.. maybe tomorrow i'll be back...
muahahaha...

COMPLETE VERSION!!!

2007-09-03T20:56:00.000-07:00

Uh huh..
Ku sekarang ini menulis lagu
Untuk ku dan sepupu ku
Kita berdua masih baru
Dalam dunia muzik ini ya!
Muzik kita rap dan RnB(mas)
And it’s meant for all of you to see(nysa)
Kita berdua penggemar muzik(mas)
Muzik hip-hop dan RnB(all)

(chorus)
Kami saudara
Kami punya cita-cita
Kami bertenaga
Muzik hip-hop dan Rnb genre kita

(mas)
Dia sepupu ku
Manis dan ayu
Orangnya bijak, ayu, dan kadang-kadang gila(hey!)
Gilanya sepertiku agaknya
Sekolahnya di madrasah
Gayanya sentiasa tampil bergaya dan juga selesa
Pandai menyanyi dan juga melukis
Pandai memasak, fuu yoo sedap rasanya
Masakan apa ya? Tanya la dia!!
Chef nysa sedang bersama anda ya!
Aku bersyukur kerana dia sepupuku
Dia juga gila seperti ku
Orangnya cukup sopan dan santun
Oh ya ku lupa ya!
Dia sedang mencari pakwe
Cirri-ciri nya? Hmm…(isi form dulu!)(nysa)
Kacak, baik hati, gila sepertinya dan….(cuba la teka).. alim la!!!
That’s all ya!!
Signing off and PEACE OUT!!!

Nysa now is your turn (mas)

(nysa)
Da pandai memuji orang, cute, jambu
Haiz, jalan sana sini
Opps! Siapa tu? Minta number boleh?
Setengah kata ‘baby, you look cute!’
Haha.. lelaki begini… maaf! Terpaksa dibatal!
Ku bersyukur kerana dia cousin ku
Kerana kita punya cita-cita yang sama
Hidup di dunia ini
Haruslah yakin, jujur, sopan santun dan amanah seperti kami…

my cuz songs.. in mly..

2007-09-03T07:11:00.001-07:00

Oh..oh..emm..
Kasih kau pernah menjanjikan
kebahagian tuk aku
sekiranya aku menerima
dikau dihati ini..
Tapi itu semuanya dusta
kata janji manismu hanya sekadar
dibibir saja..
Oh..mengapa semua ini terjadi
pada diriku
disaat-saat aku
cuba menerimah dikau dihati ini..
Oh..jika itu keputusanmu
pergilah..pergilah dikau
meninggalkn hati yg terluka ini..
Kasih..

my lyrics!! cooment bout it ya!!

2007-09-03T06:28:00.000-07:00

(mas)
Dia sepupu ku
Manis dan ayu
Orangnya bijak, ayu, dan kadang-kadang gila(hey!)
Gilanya sepertiku agaknya
Sekolahnya di madrasah
Gayanya sentiasa tampil bergaya dan juga selesa
Pandai menyanyi dan juga melukis
Pandai memasak, fuu yoo sedap rasanya
Masakan apa ya? Tanya la dia!!
Chef nysa sedang bersama anda ya!
Aku bersyukur kerana dia sepupuku
Dia juga gila seperti ku
Orangnya cukup sopan dan santun
Oh ya ku lupa ya!
Dia sedang mencari pakwe
Cirri-ciri nya? Hmm…(isi form dulu!)(nysa)
Kacak, baik hati, gila sepertinya dan….(cuba la teka).. alim la!!!
That’s all ya!!
Signing off and PEACE OUT!!!

Nysa now is your turn (mas)

(nysa)
Da pandai memuji orang, cute, jambu
Haiz, jalan sana sini
Opps! Siapa tu? Minta number boleh?
Setengah kata ‘baby, you look cute!’
Haha.. lelaki begini… maaf! Terpaksa dibatal!
Ku bersyukur kerana dia cousin ku
Kerana kita punya cita-cita yang sama
Hidup di dunia ini
Haruslah yakin, jujur, sopan santun dan amanah seperti kami…

love him lots!!

2007-07-16T03:48:00.000-07:00

i love my boy soo much!! he's nice, sweet, yup!! everything!!

im grounded!!

2007-06-29T03:34:00.000-07:00

yeah! im grounded... actually.. frm e com.. my dad has give me warning not to use e com!! i dun noe how long butshd be aft my n levels... haiz........

..........

2007-06-25T07:12:00.000-07:00

mane seh si alyph? penat tau gerl2 tunggu. tau la die bz beh suro orang masok mlm beh tk de.. tapi tak pe pe... me faham... die busy.... by the way, album die best arh.. love e song almost but rough.. best gler seh tu lagu... haha.... hopefully, he online soon.. haiz..

haizzzzz

2007-06-25T00:24:00.000-07:00

i'm not sure if i wanna mit ma fwens lata but ya noe wat? i'm tired! juz come back frm sch... haizzz